A Part Of Me Didn’t Want To Stop Binge Eating. Here’s Why.

To be honest, all of the shame & anxiety that I felt after a food binge didn’t outweigh the comfort that it gave me.

Food had been my friend for so long, that I couldn’t imagine NOT going to it anymore.

When I thought about my long lonely car commute, or the end of a stressful day on the couch, or waiting to start a work project, or after a night of drinking...

I couldn’t imagine not eating. It scared me. What else would I do??

So instead of giving up the binges, I thought I’d outsmart them. 

I started eating as little as I could through the day & then bingeing on "healthy food"- giant bags of nuts, dates, boxes of protein bars, and green smoothies that filled my blender to the brim. P.S. this was WHILE I was a Health Coach (talk about feeling like a fraud).

When I finally made the decision to end my binges & heal my relationship with food I knew it meant healing food restriction first and foremost, but also something I’d been avoiding for years: My emotions.

The loneliness. The fear of not being good enough or things not working out or failing or a thousand other things that I’d swept under the rug for years without realizing.

Yes, I was in pain, but it was pain that I knew. 

Healing my binges meant feeling uncomfortable beyond the pain of my bloated belly + food guilt. It meant "being" with my emotions & finding another way to support myself beyond just food.

If you know in your soul that you’re ready to end bingeing & make peace with food, but it’s terrifying to take the next step. I see you- I’VE BEEN THERE.

If you haven’t downloaded my free Binge Eating Solution Sheet, this is an awesome time to do so! Grab the resource here.